Lately.. EMO!!

for this past few months.. I have this turmoil inside my head =.=

my feelings are like roller coaster.. one time is up.. the next time you know.. it will go down.. fast!!

like this..

cih…

If I’m just Me..

If I’m just being Me..

without ambition~~

without success~~

only plain life~~

If I’m just being Me..

who is thinking to give up on reaching the highest star

who is trying to find “not-so-hard-work” path

who is too tired to do anything

If I’m just being Me..

who envy those who seems could have anything without working too hard

who angry at the unfairness of my life

who mad at myself for keep having those negative thoughts

If I’m just being Me..

would you still be proud of me?

would you still be by my side?

would you still accept me?

If I’m just being Me..

Beautiful~~

*credit to ShellyyBabehh ^^

Actually.. I don’t know what the song is about.. Just kept hearing the song over and over again..

Fall in love with the rhythem and melody already..

And now.. patiently waiting for someone make the high quality of this song and show the lyric of this song.. so I could understand what’s the meaning of the song..

but if I listen carefully.. behind those noises created by some crazy fans *cih!!! I’m so jealous~~ I want to be there as well!!!!! how I wish I was there T.T huuhuhuhuhu* well.. I could only hear the part “coz you are so beautiful”..

if I could make a guess.. I think this song it’s about a boy who fall in love with a girl.. obviously ^^; but somehow.. I feel a bit sad when I listened to the song.. I don’t know why~~ suppose this song to be a happy song right?? but that’s the feeling I got when I listened to it..

being me.. even though I feel sad everytime I listen to this song.. I’m still replaying the song over and over.. even now~~

yeah~~ I think there’s a part of me who likes to torture myself with all sad kind of things.. and coz I’m not in the good mood for these few weeks.. so.. yeah.. let it be~~

I think I will let myself sink deep and deeper into angst mode.. accompanied by Donghae’s sweet voice ^^

Marriot kena BOM!!!!.. lagi~~

and that’s the first news I’ve got.. early in the morning..

and my reaction???

well.. how should I say this.. it will be a bit inappropriate but.. who cares~~

when I heard the news.. I just thought..

*Oooo SHIT!!!!!!!! what the fuck is goin on???!!!* ..I’ve told you it’s a bit rude =P

there are 3 bombs so far as I know that happened early in the morning today!!! like around 7am.. located at Kuningan.. and yeah.. they were exploded in Marriot (again!!!) and Ritz Carlton.. two of the most expensive hotels in Jakarta.. well in Indonesia too..

are these people crazy???!!!! why so many people like to bomb everything??? damn!!!! if I ever can get my hands on those bombers.. be sure that you guys.. bombers.. will regret that you ever born on earth.. I’m not goin to kill you.. that’s easy~~ no.. you have to feel the pain that you made to others.. for the rest of your life.. and I’ll make sure.. you will have a long long life span *evil smirk*

ok.. now my evil side is starting to show..

not that I’m too scared or something.. but the thing is.. I’m worry!! hell yeah I’m worry.. coz.. my brother’s college is near Kuningan.. to be exact.. very near!!! His college is in Sudirman Park~~ and my friend is working in Sudirman WTC and she always comes early in the morning through Kuningan..

so.. should I be worried??? OF COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!

if it’s happening for example in China or Australia.. I wouldn’t be so damn worried like this.. but still.. wherever those bombing incidents happened.. I never like it.. heck.. who will??? unless those stupid bombers..

luckily.. today my brother has late schedule for his lectures.. but my friend~~ damn!!! where is she??? I can’t reach her uptill now.. shoot!!!!!!!! hope she’s ok *finger cross*

and what made me more pissed off.. it’s that.. some people not worried enough about the bomb.. instead.. they worried about whether MU still want to come to Indonesia or not~~

oh PLEASE!!!!!!!!! people are dead and you are concerning about MU coming or not????????!!!!!

well~~ I won’t talk about this.. coz people have their own mind and different perspectives in seeing things.. maybe it’s just me who kinda upset with those kind of mind set.. don’t know~~

just pray for those who got killed in this incident to be R.I.P

and pray for the safety of others~~

Saengil Chukae Chang.. eh Vina d =P

kalo kata mita.. muka vina either nista ato oon =P *bukan aye lho yang bilang >o<* hahahahahahaha kalo diliat-liat~~ bener juga ya XP hahahahahahahaha.. pis vin..

anyway anyho~~ sebenernya gw da niat bobo neh.. cuma inget.. aku ga mo telat post lage =P hehehehehe.. jadinya ol d.. pas da ol.. malah liat yang macem-macem XO hahahahahahaha.. dunia maya penuh hiburan.. jadinya susah konsen nulis malahan =P *alasan*

intinya.. for my dear girl.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! akhirnya nyusul juga dek jojo jadi 23.. qta tinggal tunggu dek bulbul aje neh.. soon~~ hahahahahahahahaha..

perlu gw doain?? iya lha~~ doa dari gw penting kan hehehehehe.. mari qta berdoa..

…………………………

doa selesai!!! =P

smoga doa saya semua terkabul untuk anda.. amin!!! hahahahahaha *apa coba doanya???*

yang jelas seh.. semoga betah n makin lengket ma aye ya hehehehehe ^o^ kalo diitung-itung.. qta da bareng berapa taon ya?? ampe lupa aye~~ hehehehehehe.. yang jelas.. I treasure every moment \(^o^)/ hehehehe..

oya neng.. jangan maen api ya.. kata mama itu berbahaya =P maen angin aje.. paling banter masuk angin >o< hahahhahahahahahaha..

hah gw makin ngalor ngidul ga jelas~~ da malem seh.. hahahaha.. eh malem-malem malah dapet sms.. ada yang dapet Hp baru tuh~~ akhirnya!!!!! hahahahaha.. N82.. kaya apa seh?? btw.. Secret Code-nya masi perlu ga??? =P hihihihihihihihihi..

enaknya nyerocos ama ini anak atu.. gw bisa ngomong apa aje ga perlu nahan.. ke anak-anak yang laen juga seh.. cuma kalo ma ni satu.. obrolannya bisa menjurus ke yang “laen-laen” hahahahahahahahahahaha XD dari mulai yang enteng.. berat.. aneh.. ga jelas.. dari ngomongin cuaca ampe politik *tapi kayanya slalu gagal kalo mo mulai ngomongin politik ^^’ hahahahaha*

so.. it’s good to have u ^o^

yang lebih penting lagi..

makan-makannya kapan??????!!!!!!!!! =P

Hokkaido.. Hokkaido.. Hokkaido Fair ^o^

party time!!! yeah!! hehehehehe..

for 2 weeks.. if I’m not mistaken~~ there is a fair called Hokkaido Fair which is now being held in Tampines Mall until the end of this week.. and according to the fair’s name.. it’s all about Hokkaido food.. or so I thought =P never been to Hokkaido before so I don’t know what kind of food originately from Hokkaido.. but what I knew for sure.. it’s all about Japanese food ^o^ my favourite!!! yippie!!!

and being me~~ of course I would not miss the chance to try some food =P hehehehehehe.. so here I’ll show you some of the food sold in this fair~~

first.. manju cake!! finally I know what manju cake looks like~~ hehehehe.. and it did taste nice ^o^ especially the red bean one~~ nyam nyam..

and I also tried.. of course.. takoyaki!! as always =P hehehehe.. this time I’m so happy.. not just becoz the size are big.. but the tako also very big and thick ^o^ hehehehe yummy!!!

at the first sight.. you will think that this was not interesrting.. well that’s what I thought.. at first.. but when I tried it~~ OMO!!! this is the best I’ve ever had so far in this fair!!! the curry tasted really perfect together with the potato bun.. definitely love it ^o^

I tried croquette too.. it’s totally different with the Indonesian croquette or my mom’s made =P but still OK to me.. all of them have their own uniqueness.. and for this Hokkaido version.. well.. they put cream in it.. and I tried the crab cream and the original potato croquette ^o^

have you ever heard about dango??? yup it was mentioning almost in every anime or manga =p so.. must try!!! hahahahahahaha.. and I tried itarashi dango.. hmm wonder what’s that mean??? the sauce is salty but the dango itself are sweet~~ so.. imagine you eat something sweet with soy sauce.. but somehow.. it tasted nice and fresh!!! hehehehe..

hmmmm I really love when there’s a fair like this.. why don’t they make it into routine.. say.. weekly?? hahahahahahahahahahaha XD *cih!! no wonder~~ how am I goin to lose weight like this??!! O.O*

First Time…

there’s always a first time.. for everything..

It’s been a while since I wrote >.< well.. not hiatus.. but I’ve just got the name.. writer’s block.. is it?? Well.. don’t think so~~ writer’s block means you can’t think anything to write down or lost passion to write right?? In my case.. lazy is my biggest problem.. then.. time!! somehow.. I couldn’t find the right time to write.. =P

anyhoo~~~ I manage to do it this time.. in the middle of conversation with my mom.. somehow I did it ^o^

and I realized one thing.. my english is getting suck and sucker =.= OMO!!! Otokke!!!

well.. so it’s better if I’m training by writing this blog in english again right =P

for this time.. I want to talk about my first time experiences~~ yeah.. just few days ago.. I managed to do several things for the first time in my life.. and I take that as an accomplishment for myself ^o^ hehehehe..

what is exactly did I do for the first time?? well.. I climbed a tree!! Finally!!! hahahahahahahahaha XD I’ve always wanted to climb a tree.. and in my 23 years of life.. finally I did it.. yippie!!!

yup that’s me.. on the tree.. hehehehehe.. well actually the tree was not too tall.. maybe it’s only like 2 or 3 meters =P but for me.. since it’s my first time.. I’m already happy with it hahahaha ^o^ even though it’s just 2 or 3 meters but still~~ when I tried to go down.. it’s kinda scary you know >.< hahahahahaha

climbing a tree has become one of my dreams since I was a little girl~~ I always want to know how it feels to climb and be on top of the tree.. can’t do it before.. coz all the trees I’ve found so far.. big and easy enough to climb *I think* but!! the problems is.. the trees were covered either with ants.. small worms.. algae.. or whatever that made me scared to climb up >.< and this time.. the tree was nice.. not to tall.. no weird stuffs covered it.. so basically.. perfect to climb!! ^o^ and so I did it~~ hehehehehe..

another first time experience that I did.. vote abroad!!! aka NYONTRENG!! ahahahahahahaha XD

this year has became my first time to vote for Indonesia presidential election outside Indonesia.. coz it’s impossible for me to go home JUST for election right?? =P and so.. being a nice citizen I am.. I voted!! of course I will use my right to vote.. I don’t like someone else use my vote for others =P

and where did I vote?? in KBRI of course lha~~ hehehehehe.. when I arrived at KBRI.. wow!!! it’s full house!! well.. crowded I meant~~ I thought no one will bother to vote since my flatmates all are laughing at me when they knew I was goin to vote~~ they thought it’s a useless thing to do.. huh!! daaa!!! useless for you maybe.. not for me.. maybe I’m just one person.. but I believed my vote matters.. imagine if all people think like them or like me.. you can see the different we could make right???

and what made me more surprised.. it’s fast!!! I did it less than 5 minutes.. if queuing included.. well.. still less than 15 minutes.. which is awesome I think~~ all were automatically arranged.. makes me wonder.. when is the election can be held like this in Indonesia itself???

did you vote??? ^o^

think that’s all =P hehehehehe.. that my “first time” experiences.. sure there will be a lot more of my “first time” but I just don’t know when those will happen.. just like “climb a tree” moment.. it just happened~~ never plan it.. but somehow I could met this tree and climbed it =P

hitsuzen??? maybe~~ who knows?? that’s what makes life more interesting right?? so I’m really looking forward to it ^o^

A Moment in Jakarta..

ok sekarang saatnya buat poto2 =P hehehehehe.. karena males ngasi keterangan satu2 jadi gw langsung masukin aja smuanya ya~~

buat makan2 selama di jakarta.. gw mo bikin post ndiri~~ jadi ga gw masukin disini d poto makanannya hehehehehe ^o^ cukup orang2nya aje yeee =P

here we go..

mmm sisanya ada di FB gw hehehehehehe.. jadi kalo mo liat lebih lengkapnya.. monggo di-cek disini ^o^ hehehehehehehehehehe…

Back Again.. and again~~

A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though she knows that you are slightly cracked

ya tu kata-kata gw dapet pas lagi buka FB..  kata-kata bijak dari Bernard Meltzer.. sapa pula ya dia????? ^^; yang jelas gw brasa banget aja pas baca ini kalimat =P setuju sekale ama ni kalimat!!! ^o^ tapi ini cuma intermezzo aje~~

intinya seh yang mo dibahas sekarang adalah.. kembalinya saya ke singapore!!!! emang seh gw berkali-kali bilang.. dimana-mana enakan indo jauh~~ tapi tetep aja.. ujung-ujungnya gw balik lagi kan??? >.< haih~~

mo gimana ya?? kerjaan masi ada~~ n duit juga lebih kenceng disini =P hahahahahahahaha.. walopun pengeluaran juga lebih gede seh >.< makanya.. kerja disini.. seneng-senengnya di indo~~

lalu.. selama 10 hari gw di jakarta.. GA PUAS!!!

rasanya kurang banget~~ masi banyak yang lom gw temuin.. masi banyak yang lom gw kunjungin.. dan yang lebih penting lagi.. masi banyak yang lom gw makan!!!!! contohnya.. siomay.. mie lungke.. kwetiau goreng.. gado-gado.. sate babi.. dkk dkk dkk..

tapi!! jadi orang harus sadar diri kan.. katanya~~ ya jadi sekarang berusaha menerima kenyataan d =P hehehehehe.. toh gw juga da mayan makan banyak juga hahahahaha.. apalagi sushi XD

n yang lebih bikin seneng lagi~~ gw kumpul ama anak2 ^o^ yippie!!!! ga lengkap seh~~ secara masi ada yang lom balik ke indo.. tapi ya sud d.. sementara ini dibawa hepi aja hehehehehe =P

ga cuma ma anak2.. tnyata pas gw pulang.. sodara2 gw juga pada dateng!! senengnya.. jadi merasa bersalah da lama ga ke semarang~~ maap ya.. yang berikutnya diusahakan maen ke semarang d >.<  terus yang lebih bikin kaget lagi.. sodara2 bokap gw juga ngumpul!! nah ini~~ jarang2 =P

yah jadi intinya seh gw hepi hahahahaha XD

cuma sayangnya.. ada satu kejadian yang menodai kebahagiaan gw *halah bahasanya* dan itu yang jadi alasan kenapa gw jadi males nulis pake bahasa inggris untuk postingan gw ini *alasan!!! padahal mang males aja hahahaha XD*

hmmmm kalo dibuat “rangkuman” kegiatan gw selama kurang lebih 10 hari di jakarta tercinta~~

hari pertama dateng.. Jumat siang..

• langsung dibawa emak dan babe tersayang makan soto ayam nyam nyam =P
• terus lanjut pulang ke rumah naro barang
• istirahat bentar.. leha leha..
• tau2 uda sore n tiba saatnya makan malem.. sodara2 bokap gw ngajak ngumpul jadilah saya pegi makan ke bakmi GM n menikmati pangsit goreng yang emang kaga ada yang bisa ngalahin d rasanya =P

lanjut Sabtu n Minggu..

• time for girls day out!!! hohohohoho ^o^ setelah “perencanaan” yang begitu matangnya.. akhirnya para gadis2 jomblo jebolan sanur ini mutusin buat poto2 di M Studio TA.. dengan sedikit “pemaksaan” jadilah qta poto2 sesuai harapan trio ulat hahahahahahahahaha XD
• selesai poto2.. lanjut~~ snack time!!! gw nyoba Sour Sally for the first time!! enakkkk hohohohoho.. tapi mahal aje~~ dan yang lebih parah.. tu waffle 65rb abis ga nyampe 5 menit ^^; ..talking about girls and eat =P
• jalan2 TA muter2 bentar~~ mampir ke Gramedia as always..
• tibalah waktunya makan malam~~ yup yup.. i’m craving for sushi.. so.. HACHI HACHI!!! hehehe..
• terus para gadis2 nginep d di rumah gw.. ngobrol ngalor ngidul gajebo ampe si tania ketiduran di pangkuannya ibu dokter =P hahahahahaha..
• besok paginya ada aja lho yang niat bangun pagi ke gereja.. gw?? jelas kga~~ i need my beauty sleep XP
• terus qta makan siang d di Izzi Pizza hohohohoho.. n karena empunya mobil sudah harus pulang.. jadilah pertemuan diakhiri di Izzi T.T

so short~~ but still.. i’m treasuring every moment with them ^o^

lalu 3 hari berikutnya.. berjuang mati2an demi GRE!!! *ga juga seh.. orang yang ada malah jalan2 mulu.. jelas aja!!! gimana mo bagus ya!!! =P biarin d hahahaha* kalo tau hasilnya gini mah.. mending gw ketemuan lagi ama anak2 =P tapi gw masi sempet ngajak ade gw makan Sushi Tei aja lho~~ hahahahahaha.. puas d makannya!!

terus kamisnya.. hari yang ditunggu2.. n hasilnya??? yeah~~ SUCKS!!!! kenapa seh musti ada yang namanya GRE coba??? buat apa??? orang US aja lom tentu ngerti!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tapi ya udalah.. nasi uda jadi bubur~~ makan aja~~ =P mending hepi hepi.. betul??? jadinya bis tes gw ma jojo nonton d tu pilem yang da ditunggu2.. TRANSFORMER 2 Revenge of the Fallen hohohohoho.. best movie so far!!! and badannya Megan Fox seh bikin ngiler eh ngiri lho~~

terus jumatnya.. sodara gw dari semarang dateng!!! yippie!!! jadi gw ikut muter2 d.. ke Pacific Place nge-drop “tuyul2″ di Kidzania n sisanya yang emang berkuasa atas dompet~~ Mangdu d!!! hahahahaha senangnya.. dapet baju n jaket =P hahahahahahaha emang paling enak jalan ama ii2.. slalu ditanya.. “Mel.. mo yang mana??” hahahahahaha XD

n Sabtu came..

yup saatnya ketemuan ama anak2 kampus.. gw da kangen berat.. tapi da pada kerja seh.. jadi susah ketemuan di hari biasa~~ uda gitu.. kalo malem.. kasian ah pada cape.. mana blakangan si edith koq malah lembur mulu???

hooo well.. yang penting intinya gw bisa ketemu!! yes!!! dari pagi di kampus ama edith~~ ngobrol gajebo ama raja juga.. ke plangi makan HokBen trus dateng d dwi ama pangerannya.. icha honey dateng juga.. lom puas sebenernya ngobrol ma edith T.T tapi dy da mst balik.. tapi gpp d.. next time lagi ya dith!! hehehe.. lalu sisanya balik ke kampus.. ada diana.. utie.. n ngobrol2.. tau2 da sore.. saatnya ke Poke!! qta janjian buat makan bareng di Poke Sushi~~

tadinya gw berharap banyak yang nongol~~ tapi~~ yah susah seh kalo da kerja.. smua uda punya kesibukan masing2.. gw cuma berharap aja.. jgn ampe lost contact ^^ tapi gw seneng setidaknya masi banyak juga yang berniat kumpul ^o^ n skali lagi.. gw makan sushi =P abis ini da ga kangen d ama sushi ampeeee nanti2 lagi hahahhahahahaha XD

pas ngumpul.. gila brasa banget~~ how i miss my campus life so much~~ life was much easier back then.. tapi qta ga bisa slalu ngeliat ke masa lalu kan.. have to move on.. jadinya dinikmatin aja moment yang ada.. sebisa mungkin enjoy ngumpul bareng anak2.. tetep aja seh.. lom puas juga ngobrol ma icha, dwi, diana, n yang laennya!!!! masi mau lagi!!! sayang waktunya ga ada T.T

n minggunya.. gw da harus balik ke spore T.T

so little time.. so much to do~~ n ga smuanya bisa dikerjain.. huaaaaaaaa

jujur aja.. gw ga rela kemaren ini balik ke spore lagi~~ tapi gimana ya?? utang kerjaan numpuk~~ dan gw ga tau kapan lagi gw balik ke indo.. bahkan gw ga tau ntar gw bakal pain bis ini >.< yah let it flow aja d.. percuma juga gw pikirin skrg~~ hahahahahahaha..

untuk poto2nya gw masukin di postingan berikutnya aja ahhh~~~