Only for You..

tic toc.. tic toc..

time is ticking.. how i wish i could stop this moment..
a moment where i found my way for love.. 
in such a lovely day.. when i finally met u.. yes it’s you..
the one i love..

it felt like miracle.. when you show me your love..
one love that made me fall into what so called love disease..
can’t believe i can love u more day by day..
feel the happiness in this endless moment..

even if someone reset my mind.. my heart..
i know.. i will.. remember u again.. as my heart is missing u every time..
even if there’s a monster who knock out me out of my midnight fantasy..
i’m still goin to fall deeper into sapphire blue ocean..
the ocean of your L.O.V.E

like a man in love.. when u said to me.. 
‘i want to marry u”
i know it’s just my wild dream..
but let’s not destroy my little hope of miracle..
what if it’s real??
then we can be happy together..
as u become my shining star and i become your angela..

and if i mirror myself.. i can tell i hate u.. love u at the same time..
hate u for making me feel this way.. sorry sorry~~
love u for saying out loud “the girl is mine!!”
and for that i thank you..

as i listened to the love song.. keep questioning myself.. 
why i like you???

DaiLy Routine!!!

ok!! my third.. enjoy it ^o^

author’s note: this is based on MY daily routine hahahahaha.. just change the characters =P

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It was exactly 7pm when I reached the dorm.. and all of the sudden..

“Kyu-ah~~ you’re home!!!” and he jumped *literally* on me.. made me almost fell on my back and lose my breath..

“Will you play with me?? You’re goin to play with me right?? Right right??!!” he kept showering me with his words and his puppy eyes.. forgot that I just barely got home..

*sigh* “Hyung~~ I just got home.. will you let me go first so I can breath?? You make me suffocated” as I said to him with plain voice of mine..

“But.. but.. I want to play~~ I’m bored” so he said as he made a pout with his tempting lips *did I say tempting??!!! what??!!! I must have been lacked of oxygen now!!*

“But I’m tired hyung~~“

“You don’t want to play with me? Why you don’t want to play with me? Why no one wants to play with me? I don’t have anyone to play with!! Who am I supposed to play with? Why you don’t want to play with me??….” and he kept talking.. on and on.. with the cute pout on his face.. made my head started to feel some headache..

“Ok ok ok.. but let me just put on my things and change clothes first hyung~~” I rushly went to my bedroom to avoid another gibbering and especially the pouting that suddenly made my eyes won’t go away from those lips..

when I felt the sudden silence behind me.. I knew he was started goin to cry..

“I promise.. Just give me a minute.. OK donghae-ah~~??” I spoke to him as I turned my face to face him and gave him an assuring smile.. and with that.. I had my prize by receiving his widest grin on his face that reflected as well in his eyes..

after a minute.. or so..

“You’re done!! OK let’s play!! I want to play baseball!!“

“Hyung~~ there’s no field in here.. you can’t play baseball inside the dorm“

“But I want to play.. I want to play baseball~~” and you pouted.. again..

I pinched my temple.. tried to reduce the headache that became much more intense each minute..

“How about play throw and catch the ball? It’s almost the same right? and we can do it inside“

“But I want baseball.. why I can’t play baseball??” you kept mumbling and tears started to form at the corner of your puppy eyes.. made me wonder.. who exactly is the hyung??? why I had the feeling like talking to a 3 years old boy??

“Hyung~~ you could break everything in this dorm if you play baseball.. you don’t want to make Eeteuk-hyung sad right?? You know what Kangin-hyung will do~~” I tried to reason him.. and it worked.. apparently Kangin’s name gave him quite a horror since you can tell by the look on his face.. well.. who doesn’t??

then.. he became quite.. probably thinking on what to do.. probably.. since Donghae rarely think~~ after less then 5 seconds..

“OK then.. let’s play ball!!!” just like i thought..

“alright~~” I sighed and took a deep breath.. and played along..

and the next day..

It was exactly 7pm when I reached the dorm.. and all of the sudden..

“Kyu-ah~~ you’re home!!! Will you play with me?? You’re goin to play with me right?? Right right??!!”

Oh no!! here we go again~~

this has been happen for like.. everyday!! I wonder when he will get bored..

“Hyung~~ aren’t you bored playing with me with the same thing all the time??“

for a moment he silenced.. seemed like thinking.. and then.. “Of course not!!” with a big smile on his face..

“Why??” I insisted to know the reason that made me always had a late dinner..

“Because I’m with you!!” he said with full smile and bright eyes that looked straight at me.. made me suddenly stunned by his words and his gaze..

.. and.. now I know the reason why I let myself being dragged by him every night by his childish pleas..

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so how? hahahahaha.. yup this is based on my own experience.. living with 3 and 2 years old babies ^^; they can be cute but at the same time can be very annoying =P but still.. loved them anyway hehehehehe..

comments please.. my first time try to make a cheerful one hahahahahaha

Memories of tHe HeaRt

ok this is my second fanfic ^o^ hopefully this one much better~~ and yup i still go with the EunHaeKyu pairing hahahahahahaha.. really love this pairing.. don’t know why ;p just love to imagine those three >.< hahahahahaha..

well.. enjoy my story.. i’m still in angst mode.. and tell me whether u get the feel or not..

like i said.. comments are loved ^o^

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Memories of the Heart

“Hyukkie!!! Let’s play some games~~” that’s what you always said whenever you feel bored.. and I always played with you..

“Hyukkie!!! Let’s go and grab some kimbap~~” that’s what you always said whenever you fell hungry.. and I always went out with you..

“Hyukkie!!! Let’s make some pranks!!” that’s what you always said to me whenever you had your creative ideas in a sudden.. and I always got scolded together with you..

“Hyukkie!!! Let’s go practice..” that’s what you always said to me whenever you wanted to improve your dance movements which already very good.. from my point of view.. but I always trained with you anyway..

“Hyukkie Hyukkie Hyukkie!!!!” that’s what you always said to me whenever you wanted my attention.. and that’s all you had to do.. coz you already had my attention from the first time i laid my eyes on you~~

for others.. they found it a little bit irritable by you always clinging to me all the time.. but to be honest..

I liked the way you called me even though sometimes it can be very annoying..

the way you annoyed me by your silly questions.. the way your lips pouting when I didn’t want to go together with you *which I never did anyway*.. the way you got me into troubles by our pranks.. the way you woke me up in the morning since I’m not a morning person *and end up by you sleeping by my side instead of waking me up ^^;*.. the way you hug me.. the way you laughed to my jokes.. the way you looked so dorky.. the way you can be silly yet looked so cute at the same time.. the way you looked at me with that puppy eyes whenever you wanted me to do something or you *which always successfully melted my heart in one strike*..

I liked everything about you.. and never once I’m questioning myself “why I like you” in the first place.. it’s just happen and felt so natural to me~~

but then..

“Hyukkie!!! I’ve got something to tell you.. I think.. I’m falling in love with Kyu“

you said those words with a big grin in your lovely flushed face.. looking at me with your deep puppy eyes.. hoping to hear my encouragement.. the one you considered as your bestfriend.. standing in front of me like a child waiting eagerly to get some candies~~

I couldn’t think at that time.. and when I managed to find my voice.. I could only said..

“That’s great Hae.. “

you gave me your big grinned and hug me tightly.. saying “I knew you will support me!!” with your sweet cheerful voice.. never knew of what was goin through my mind.. as dense as you always be..

I barely can stand and felt like running at that time.. but I kept myself calm.. only coz I didn’t want to see you sad..

and for the first time.. I’m questioning myself..

“Why I like you, Hae???“

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ok2.. i know.. this one too short ;p hahahahahaha.. and i don’t think i improved a lot.. since i wrote this without even take a look again ;p..

but i hope you like it ^^

and yes.. i was inspired by Super Junior’s song hahahahahahahahaha..

Shadow by the Heart

hehehe this is the first time i wrote a fanfic ;p

just becoz i kinda bored and had the time *i should be study now but somehow lazy~~~* that’s why i tried to write this.. actually i already planned to do it from long time ago but don’t have the nerve to do it.. now~~ try to challenge myself to do something new *for me* hehehehehehe..

so feel free to comment and yeah.. this is not a normal story anyway~~ hahahaha.. i told you before~~ i like both ways ^o^ hahahahahahahahaha..

enjoy~~

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Shadow by the Heart

First time we arrived at China, you held my hands and smiled. Made me felt warm and content even though I knew you also felt the loneliness I felt being apart from other members. After months we spent together in China, I thought we already had this so-called “special” relationship. And that’s why,  although I missed Korea so much but since you were here with me all the time, I felt none anymore.

But why??

Why when we finally get together again as a whole group, suddenly there’s this gap between us??

Why can we be liked we were used to be?

Why I had this feeling that you slowly started to pull yourself away from me?

You talked, played, smiled and gave your sweet chuckle to other members. Especially to him. Lee Hyukjae.

I knew it from the start that he was and always be your very best friend. He had this special place in your heart that no one could replace. But I thought I had those special place too~~ in your heart. Or was it just me? Who stupid enough to think that somehow I could finally have your attention.

Coz when me and him were put together in the same place, I couldn’t find any trace that I actually have a special meaning for you. You put all of your attentions to him. Listened to his stories. Laughed to his jokes. Cried to his pain. Went to wherever he took you. Just the two of you. Always the two of you. Even other members could tell, nothing can go between you two.

While me, like a shadow besides you, could do nothing but watched. Watched as you and he were happy together in your own world. As for me who could only be nothing but a shadow who was there but unnoticeable. Slowly pierced my heart bit by bit just by watching you. Wishing that I was him. Wishing that I was the one who holds your heart. But I knew, that’s just merely a wish for wish was never meant to come true.

Well actually, we did have good relationship right? Back then when we were in China. When there was no him but you and me only. How I wish I could turn backed the time and used my time to show you my true feeling so that I don’t have to be miserable now. But foolish me, maybe that time.. you only used me as a replacement for him or coz you can’t find anyone to hang around but me. Only you who knew the answer.

So tell me now Hae.. am I just a shadow to you?

Coz my heart already shattered now and I don’t know how to mend it anyhow~~

Holding to our memories was the only thing that still could make me sane uptil now, but don’t know for how long anymore.

How I wish for you to call my name and say those words I longed for..

Kyuhyun-ah~~ Saranghae~~

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